The magic touch

there we lay
you at my side
a tiny sigh
your arm slides
under mine
stripping away
the last cares
of today
tracing the contours
along the back
of your hand
as your breath
shallows to
contented slumber
sliding my fingers
in between yours
curling around
till my whole world
is contained
in the air
between our touch.

tepid light
fades to black
thoughts that haunt
tumble back
buried deep
within bones
balanced on
sinking stones
twist and turn
rip to shreds
full of fear
bound by dread
puppet strings
tangled knots
once was known
now forgot

An Age Old Question......

When heart and soul

Time and spirit

Are possessions you cherish

When together

You journey

To places unknown

That are strangely familiar

When because

Is a reason

All of it's own

When wants

become needs

As sparks of desire

Fuel each new flame

When it is everything

All at once

Needing nothing more

When rhyme and reason

Have no sense at all

Though it just

feels so right, perfect and true

When there are

No conditions

And it is simply enough

When you are high

on life

And intoxicated

by each other

When these pieces all fit

That's when you know

That you are really in love.

A million souls

That touch one's heart

Now cast adrift

Through space and time

Setting their sails

For horizons new

With pastures green

And skies of blue

Eyes straight ahead

No looking back

Then much too late

We realise,

And splash through seas

But head goes under

In the race to catch

Come up for air

And one

Last glance

Before resignation

At missed chance

And stomach sinks

As reality bites

But somehow brings

A certain peace

I am....

I am

full of dread

each and every

single day

scared

of the world

frightened of me

I am

drowned

in thoughts

that twist

and turn

down obscure

paths

I am

helpless

and feeble

though it's

defended well

by cloaks

and daggers

I am

unsure

of where

or if

I belong

so peering

through bars

is where I stay

I am

always

thinking the worst,

things taken

personally

full of guilt

as I know I shouldn't

I am

exhausted

from giving my best

giving all

that I have

till there's

no more left

I am

just me

nothing more,

nothing less

most days

it's just painful

knowing there's nothing else.

Time has come

Some thing must give

Dependancy

Has become a curse

Permission to care

Like never before

Overwhelmed by emotion

Locked for so long

Now released

Becomes an addiction

A junkie desperate

For her fix

But one hit

No longer enough

After tiny taste

Of this drug

No pill to pop

No weed to smoke

Just love

And dreams

And care

And hope

No clinic for

Recovery

No detox

Or diet

To fight it with

Left alone

In withdrawl

The sweats

The nightmares

Are all the same

The helpless feeling

It went so wrong

And even though

It was grasped so tight

Cherished

Adored

Like none before

But now that

Guard has gone

Gates thrown open

For all to enter

To trample

To hide

taking pieces with them

Leaving holes behind

Shut the gates

Deflect the spell

Break the habit

It's all or nothing

Or else it just hurts

Casting stones

Into dark water

Endless ripples

Cross smooth surfaces

Calm regained

Though uncertainty

Continues in

Depths below

Tentative footing

Over mossy rocks

Slippery surfaces

Prone to stumbles

Precarious steps

Searching for

The right way

Breathing deep

Intense air

Of misty forests

With unseen tracks

Where future lies

Chameleon like

Hidden well

Waves of Emotion

Ripples that grow

On passing tide

Bursting against

Each other

Tidal waves

Of feelings

That build

With unknown force

Rising high

About to break

After one last

Tremendous swell

White crest

Giving the game away

In held breath

For just a moment

A chance it will

Ebb and calm

Then with

Almighty crash

It all

Pounds against

The shore

Stumbling

Why is it hard

To spend each day

As we know

It should be lived

To chase desires

Instead of just

Passing

In self induced haze?

Is it because

We don't believe

We have

Earned the right to live

And so we choose

To stumble

Down misty streets

Not seeing

What lies ahead?

When

When Autumn leaves fall to the ground

And creatures gather up their Winter hoards

Though distant sun hangs low

And parents kiss their kids goodnight

If harsh rain pours from grey skies

And streets fill with black umbrellas

Should storms rage across the world

And homes suddenly turn dark

Be sure of just one thing

As time passes

Each day, each month, each season

I shall be forever

Standing beside you

She

She screams

At the top of her lungs

Begging the world

To hear

Her voice trembles

As she forms the words

Of all she needs

To say

The sky

Is filled with

A million thoughts

Each one

Escaped into the night

Her head

Not ready to admit

That she desires

More of the world

She tries

To capture back her dreams

Floating gently

On the clouds

Eyes well

With tears not cried

As old pains

Still cut deep

She hears

The echoing

Of a ticking clock

Reminding her

That time flies past

Deep down

She knows

There's just one chance

To reclaim the life

She lost

Six Candles

When the blues

Cloud your world

I will paint bright rainbows

Across your sky.

If the path

Appears rough

I will pave new roads

For you to walk

Should the weight

Become too heavy

I will take the burden

To ease your load

When cold wins

Chill the bones

I will blanket your cares

And warm your soul.

If tiredness

Creeps over

I will tuck you in bed

Allowing you to rest.

Should darkness

Shroud your day

I will light six candles,

Guiding you back home.

Broken Down

Going through the motions

Clearing out debris

Grabbing at fragments

Of shattered mementos

Desperately trying

To make the parts fit

Wanting to glue back

Pieces of your own being

Knowing without doubt

They have gone forever

Never to return

To the way it once was

Not ready to let go

But will not survive

In ramshackled surrounds

No comfort

Or safety

Here anymore

Only a mushroom cloud

Of emotions

Looming large

Overhead.

.

When your silence

Is deafening

And you are missed

My mind tells tales

Of shared adventures

Future and past

Played out

Between the lines

Of conversation

Hand in Hand

Take my hand

and walk with me

Down cobbled lanes

and darkened alleys

Through unknown streets

In the City of Life

No map

No compass

Just trust to guide us

Dead ends to frustrate

Bright lights distract

Potholes to stumble, trip and fall

Hand in hand

We shall stay on track

Till we reach a place

And we just know...